The boys and I are fine, well as good as we can be. We think of you all day. Nic got his internship he had hoped for. He is going to be a fine young man and husband. You would be so proud of Anthony, his words to you were spoken out of love. You did a great job as their mother. I thank you and I want to say thank you for their spouses. They will be blessed by how you loved the boys. You taught them well. We try hard to live life as you did. I know that is what you would have wanted. But you know it is not easy some times. Thankfully we have been blessed to have so many people helping us. It is an expression of how much people loved you. Gina and Diane have talked me into running for therapy. I have agreed to try to run a half marathon. Can you believe that? I didn't think so. I hope walking is allowed! I'm doing it for you, they say it is a nice time to think about you and pray. That part sounds nice. Don't worry, as if you could, I will be okay. I carry you in my memory and you are still a part of me and always will be.
Thank you for leaving us with the peace of not having to ask why. Your faith in God and absolute trust in Him no matter what is what gives me the strength to get up each day. It is your faith that allows me to think about living. I know life will go on because I saw you believe despite the odds. When I get discouraged I think of you and how you lived. You still give me comfort and strength. You were a truly amazing woman. You honored me by being my wife. I know I have told you that before but I had to say it again. I just want you to know what you mean to me. How much you changed my life when you looked over at me on April 19th 1980. Thank you for your unfailing love and devotion to making my dreams come true, even the ones I did not know I had.
I hope I make you proud and that God will find me worthy to serve Him as you did. That I will take the gift of faith you passed on to me and the boys and use it for God's glory. There is no good way to end this letter. So I guess I will close by just saying thanks. Thanks for showing me what love feels like, what faith looks like, what happiness means, but most of all thank you for showing me who God is. I will miss you Jokie.