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Wednesday, December 5, 2007

ICU Update 5 Dec PM

1 Corinthians 13

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Andrea's just left for her CT scan at 9:30pm. I don't expect to hear anything until 2-3 am.

She is doing good on the new vent setting. Her blood gas checks were good earlier today. She is sleepy and groggy and only opens her eyes a little bit but she will respond when you ask her something. They gave her some medicine to relax her when they changed the vent to the new setting and it has not worn off. I believing it will and Andrea will be alert tomorrow. It is good to have Nic here, although it is hard to see him endure this. But when he talks to Andrea she smiles and lifts her hand to him and I know it is good for both of them. Anthony is doing okay, I see him struggling with all this as we all are at times. But I have decided to go home each day around 3 so I can meet him after school and bring him up here in the evening.

It has been a stressful day of waiting. But now as I sit in her room a friend is gently rubbing her hands and I see how Andrea affects us all. There is something about her. I thought what is it that makes Andrea so special.

Sitting here can be hard for all of us but it is also a blessing to witness such faith played out before our eyes. I can't help but be in awe as I think about this woman who has poured her life out into all of us. It is utter selflessness. It is the closest thing I have witnessed to Agape love. I sit in awe of a woman with such strength. If you walk in you might say she is weak. She lies there barely able to move, struggling to lift her arm, yet I have never seen such strength. When I was scared today it was Andrea that told me it would be okay. It was Andrea that said "I will win."

2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

That is what you see when you walk into this room, God's strength in the frailty of Andrea's body. God's power perfected in Andrea's weakness. And it draws us in, those who are curious, and those who desire this strength that eludes so many. This strange display of strength is such an unexpected form. And in this God is reveled to us. You may ask, "Why is this happening to her? Where is God in all this suffering?" "If God loved us why do we suffer?" I see just the opposite I don't wonder where God is I look at Andrea and I see God's love. This is the closest I have been to understanding the depth of God's love for us. I feel Christ's compassion for Andrea knowing firsthand how He suffered. I feel His love for all of us who struggle with what is happening. Wanting to tell us it is okay, urging us to think eternally. To trust. God is calling all of us into a deeper relationship with Him. A relationship built on faith, faith born out of adversity. It draws us beyond ourselves to understand something seemingly cruel or unnecessary.

Andrea's greatest gift to all of us all is to help understand this love. In her acceptance of this cross we see a reflection of Christ's love for us.

This is why she suffers in silence, why Andrea she pours her life out before us. Her desire is that we all know the depth and expanse of God's love for each of us. She waits patiently for us to understand. Never attacking, never condescending, never judgmental. Always accepting. No matter where you are in your faith, Andrea's desire is that you grow.

This is Andrea's love for you. This is why she bears this cross. This is what draws us to this little giant. We want what she has even when we are scared to take that step of faith. Maybe deep inside ourselves we fear God will then ask us to go where Andrea is going. Maybe we fear we are not up to the task.

If Andrea was typing this she would tell you that you are not up to the task. That is exactly what she is trying to tell us. It is not her strength, but God's. And if and when God asks you to be a witness in a trial, she would tell you, "Don't worry, God will carry you.  All you have to do is have the faith to take the first step."


  1. Thank you. That is a beautiful post and you are spot on with what makes Andrea so incredible! What a witness the two of you are. I will lift up Nic and Anthony in prayer tonight as well as you and Andrea and all those who love you.


  2. You are a pillar of faith and your family is doing great! Andrea--know God's word is true when He said, "He who began a good work in you, will be faithful to complete until the day of Christ Jesus."

    Stay focused on the source of your true strength--the mighty hand of Father God. HiDrag--please know I'm here if you need someone to come sit with you or just talk to--no matter the time, sir. Please keep my numbers close.

  3. Yes Jim, you're right about all you said of Andrea. She would be cheering me on and tell me to "just take that step". In my prayers I'm praying with her faith because my seems a lot weaker right now. Well, it did before I read your post. Now I'm stengthened, truly. And you're so right, there is strength in your story, in the faith of Andrea and in God's love that is filling you all with everything you need for this time. I'm praying for Nic and Anthony especially...for that strength to fill them too. Love,Gibi